Past Takes

It's amazing how you know
and I don't

It's amazing that I am threaded
with hope
against odds

but, I am

Forgetting that spell in the ccu
I hope that this is the TIMe

But, it isn't

So, I keep fighting and maybe it will work.

Some unknown cosmos will swoop in and
flatten past takes.

Guilliotine Me

Shall I go now.

She, embarking upon a house.

Shall I up a mountain and shout.

You who dismiss help, winching

dregs of balm

because you misunderstand

addiction.

Your feeble attempts at disbursement

guillotine me.

How many have you condemned to death,

literally?

But, there is hope.

You can learn.

No Backtracking

She comes from an alternate universe
Where alternators live
Flubbing the shots and so
I have to mix it up

Down she goes
mixing it around
randomly choosing
shall i listen to names
that miss humanness

I say no

Rules don’t apply
of sense

murking up a bit

logic leaves on a train
with no backtracking

Big red door
blocking the way

Dispirited face
locks the child inside
far in alternative world

A place where I cannot go
Listen to In The Cold Light of Morning
(Read the Lyrics:http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/placebo/inthecoldlightofmorning.html )

Do You Know What Your Kids are Up to?

If you are in Pittsburgh tomorrow come join us at The Art Institute.

Not One More Pittsburgh will be raising awareness of the Heroin Epidemic.

Parents, I am telling you, you need to take action, you need to be proactive.
I had no clue my kids were dabbling with drugs, let alone messing with Heroin.
Just put "Heroin Epidemic" in google and see what you come up with. Here is an example of
a report: http://www.nbcnews.com/storyline/americas-heroin-epidemic/managing-sons-heroin-addiction-full-time-job-n77391 It's everywhere. It's not just in the inner city like you might imagine. You need to be
in the know.  Educate yourself. In the future Not One More Pittsburgh will be showcasing The Anonymous
People in several locations in Pittsburgh area. Check out the trailer:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bqoEtUn0Agw

My daughter went for help to an emergency room. They sent her home. I called them back and said why...and told a little of her story...the professional said, "I think you want it more than she does..."
If your baby were lying in a gutter, would you step over her/him and say, oh, "She doesn't want it bad enough."  Of course not.

Drug use is a choice initially. Eventually it become a disease. "The rewarding effects of drugs of abuse come from large and rapid upsurges in dopamine, a neurochemical critical to stimulating feelings of pleasure and to motivating behavior. The rapid dopamine “rush” from drugs of abuse mimics but greatly exceeds in intensity and duration the feelings that occur in response to such pleasurable stimuli as the sight or smell of food, for example. Repeated exposure to large, drug-induced dopamine surges has the insidious consequence of ultimately blunting the response of the dopamine system to everyday stimuli. Thus the drug disturbs a person’s normal hierarchy of needs and desires and substitutes new priorities concerned with procuring and using the drug." (http://science.education.nih.gov/supplements/nih2/addiction/guide/essence.htm)

Do not abandon your loved one: My Sister Was an Addict So for Years I Stayed Away  let's you know what the proper response is. I am not saying that you shouldn't set boundaries. 

Come to the Art Institute tomorrow, August 22, 2014 and see if you can become part of the solution.  Arm yourself with knowledge. Be proactive. Join Not One More PIttsburgh: 
https://www.facebook.com/events/1464253763827419/
RX2DC is an event promoting the awareness of the dangers of prescription medication deaths an overdoses. 

An creative display of approximately 15,000 prescription bottles, some with pictures of lives lost caused by prescription medication and addiction/overdose.

Join Not One More, Sage's Army and others in support of the Ohio group, RX Epidemic Memorial Foundation. Help them educate people on the dangers of Prescription drugs, who is affected and how these drugs play a role in our Drug Addiction Epidemic. Come share your story, bring a photo of a loved one lost to overdose and be an interactive participant or just come and support.

The Art Institute of Pittsburgh is cohosting this event and will be doing videos as well. Media will also be attending.

He Who Holds up the Mirror

He Who Holds the Mirror

1. 

Thunder rumbles
Calls me
I look out the corner of my eye

Earthquakes stake a right
of passage into my heart

If it were not for
Addiction
I would pay attention

That’s the thing

conspiracy spins
distraction

keeps me away from
paying attention

sugar, corn syrup.
kardashian
floods news

when I don’t seem to see
who is the one holding the mirror

At the End of Civilization

At the End of Civilization

We may as well go live at the end of civilization
in Corolla where the horses wild roam

The sand will surround us
The sea will creep in

I in my button down parka

He in his button down frown

Is it the year of 65?
Silver savers, gold purveyors

“I will try to fix you”

Yah, that’s right
I still do

I know it doesn't work
I don’t care

it gives me a cause

I don’t have any

so any old one will do

Let us go then
you and I
to the end of civilization
in Corolla
where the sand seeps in
and the sea

Pushes us out to the
sky where our ship awaits.

Chronic Pain

Sometime I feel like a motherless soul 

I wander from place to place
i sit beside him

he sits in his chair
hey so do i

corrupted by pain
in a stupor

its a shame
we have no
repartee

just rockets
with seats onto
our own universe

Cut off by chronic pain
Art would say
no pain = no gain

and I guess Art
would be right

I remember when
the muse resided in him
creating fulfilling now
he knocks on his door
anxious to get at the
gem residing in the long
hallway with erected crystalline
guards suffocating his outer
rings

I in my chair
He in his
Chronic pain

Nothing Else Compares

Nothing Else Compares

throw coldplay under the bus just because you are into rap now.
whew ewww ahhh
never understand populus
brains thrown out
jump on the bandwagon

nothing else compares

art
is constant
it doesn’t look and say that tree
is old
it looks and says that tree
is triumphant

My Sis-in-law Enters AARP Boomer Superstar

She has a beautiful voice, especially since she is singing this acapella!  Take a listen:
http://aarpcontest.votigo.com/contests/showentry/1721401 Please share this with ALL your friends!

Hurricane

It hit me again

It hit him

and me

again

Like before

I didn't expect it

at all

It waited until

I was lulling in

the mirror reflection

on the river

Sentries on vacation

I didn’t react at first

Took awhile to hit me

the first wave

the next

the whirlpool

My hand up in the

center

not waving for help

Misunderstanding

Addiction took my son’s love away

He didn't want her hurt

He wrote a poem about her

There would have been my grandchildren

but he knew better

My daughters boyfriend was the opposite

he bit her

He suffused his malicious disease into her life.

Not at all understanding LOVE.

Organic Fertilizers Giveaway!

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Lentils, Mushrooms and Salad for dinner

We had lentils with garlic, sea salt and Mrs. Dash orig.; sautéed mushrooms in olive oil with a little red onion and a large salad (Arugala, Mixed greens and tomato with oil, vinegar and basil.

I used this recipe to make the lentils http://www.thekitchn.com/how-to-cook-dried-lentils-116321

Parsley Wild Rice

I made wild rice and parsley yesterday. I sautéed mushrooms (1lb.) for 14 minutes. In another pot I had a cup of wild rice simmering in 6 cups of water for 45 minutes. When the mushrooms were golden I mixed the wild rice with the mushrooms and sprinkled 4 tbsp. of fresh parsley and 2 tbsp. of fresh squeezed lemon on top. You can add salt and pepper if you wish. I found this recipe on Martha Stewart website.  http://www.marthastewart.com/314462/wild-rice-with-mushrooms-and-parsley

Chicken Cacciatore

Yesterday I made chicken cacciatore. I put an 1/2 cup of flour on waxed paper and added salt and pepper. I coated the chicken with the flour and browned the chicken in a skillet. I removed the chicken and browned an onion. I added oregano (2 tsp., salt and pepper) a 1/2 cup of wine and cooked half liquid off. I then added a can of petite cut tomatoes with juice and 2 minced cloves of garlic. I covered and let this cook for 10 minutes. I added the chicken, covered and let cook for 20 minutes more. Serve over pasta.

Chicken and Mushrooms

This afternoon we were driving home and an older lady came on the radio with this recipe: Chicken, Cream of Mushroom Soup plus 1/2 can of milk and onions. I decided to make it for supper. I browned onion and mushrooms, then browned the chicken. Put in 9x12 and added cream of mushroom soup (I was going to make my own cream sauce, but I cheated), covered with tin foil, placed in oven and baked for half an hour. Boiled some Amish noodles and when chicken was done mixed them into chicken. I actually added another can of cream of mushroom because it was a little runny and placed back in over uncovered for ten minutes more.
Was delicious.

New York

It's first time I have been in New York since I was about four.  I love it.
Although it's a sad time for my husband. We are here for his cousin's funeral.
It was so nice having a Whole Foods just a block's walk away!

We bought some Pasta and sauce and some butternut squash and cranberries.
It was wonderful.  What is so wonderful is that it was late...the stores stay open
until 11. 

Can't wait to see the view of Central Park from the balcony tomorrow morning.